What do I do when you're all alone in this world. Everyone and everything has left you. Your friends are too busy with their own lives, you can't trust or talk to your boyfriend anymore, and so you lie in bed alone just thinking and talking to yourself trying to make things better. Trying to encourage myself when my chest is in so much pain.
I know what to do: I wait. I know this pain will not last. Sooner or after, I will leave. Leave everyone I know, everyone who has caused me all this pain and grief, all this sadness that has been longing for escape. Leave my friends , family and even my boyfriend. I don't want to deal with them anymore. I want to start a fresh new life with new people. I'll miss everyone I knew before but I know that I will be happy. I am sick and tired and I don't want to feel like this anymore. No one is here to help me and no one wants and accepts me. No one wants to make me feel better. If they did, they'd be here with me right now, stopping the tears streaming down my face.
"Just a few more months", I tell myself.
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